Looking at those resolutions: Part II

After having looked critically at the health-related items on my resolutions list last week, today is the day to examine the outcome of “try  to spend more time doing things you really like”. (And I won’t mention the fact that I had a bit of a relapse sweets-wise… partly due to younger son’s birthday…. I am talking cake and icing and jelly beans…)

Doing things I really like – so that would be writing. So, how has my writing coming along in January (plus a bit of February)?

Well. Yes. Better than in December. But not as much as I wanted it to.

Why is it that even though I really try to schedule time for writing, dedicate whole mornings to it, other things still manage to sneak and wriggle their way in? Volunteer work at school, chores at home, doctor’s appointments – they come slithering into my life one here and one there, clogging up my free time, and before I realise my week is full of the stuff.

It is your own choice, I hear you say. Just say “no” to the volunteer work, leave the mess in the house a mess, and stop complaining about things like dentist’s appointments – they are only once every 6 months anyway. (And if you stay fit and healthy you won’t need a doc in between. Ha ha.) If writing is that important to you, then stick to it.

Yes. I know. True. But.

But doing stuff at school is fun too, and I enjoy being around the kids (my own and their class mates). And I like it when the house is a bit less messy. And things like laundry and grocery shopping need to be done.

O.k. But then it is your choice, isn’t it? Your conscious choice?

Then don’t complain. And use the free time you have left in between wisely.

All right. I won’t. I will. Promise.

(P.S. I really had no big plans for this morning, only writing. Had it big in my calendar. But. But then I realised that if I put in another one or two hours I can finish the big reorganising of our living room before the boys come home. So I moved stuff around. Threw out LOTS of things – that’s why I needed to do it alone – found new places for the things that are left… Now it really looks good. And I am happy. Because this has been on my to-do-list for some time. And today was just the day for it. … My choice. – At least I got this post done afterwards. And now I will have some lunch. 😉 )

Battling reactive mode

To start it positive: today was a good day, mainly. More ups than downs, and some opportunities to be creative. I spent time doing what I wanted to do. But in the evening it somehow went wrong.

Half of the day I pictured myself using the evening for nice activities on my blog:  playing around, exploring the possibilities, maybe writing something nice, maybe starting to fill the bookshelf.

But as soon as I settled down at the computer I was sucked into reactive mode. The email I had prepared yesterday to quickly finish off and send: draft disappeared, needed to be re-written from scratch. Other e-mails coming in, demanding attention. My phone starting to beep, giving me text messages that wanted to be answered. My laptop feeling like going on strike, needing to be re-started.

After I dealt with all this: one look at the clock, telling me the nice cosy evening has almost passed without being nice and cosy at all.

Any choices here?

I chose not to force it. I chose to go to bed – almost. I thought, why not write it down. Turn it into something. Something that will give me the feeling that this evening was not utterly lost.

So maybe that is an idea. After having dealt with the chores that force themselves upon you, allow yourself some nice little reward. Does not have to be a piece of chocolate. Could be something  that gives you back your feeling of control. Some moment of happily doing what you love to do.

And now I choose to go bed.

Good night.